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Thursday, October 02, 2008

Thu, 02 Oct 2008 19:51:10 GMT

I am happy....I feel content and at peace with it just being me in my immediate surroundings, and finally believing that I am worth something all on my own. I have been in an on going battle for quite a while now trying to get to this place! It happened kind of suddenly, I just sort of arrived here. There is a certain time of day that is one hour before sunset, and one hour after sunrise that photographers call the "golden hour". Everything is just drenched in a golden hue almost giving the sense that time has slowed down...this is the place I have stumbled into. The last year of my life has been a difficult one filled with alot of learning(the hard way) and shedding of old skins. I am excited and hopeful for what the future may bring and content in realizing what it may not bring. Be well

"Indeed my dear ones, there is a place of soft existence where the future is contented awareness and playful excitement!"

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Thu, 25 Sep 2008 00:44:47 GMT

Ive been looking through my long since posted scribbles on this dear site and feel sad that I have not done so for ages!.....Fall is beginning, the summer flew by in a heated rush of excitement and has left me, as always, wanting it to last for just a little while longer. Hmm summer....bare shoulders, ice coffee, the vibrant color green, and warm darkness.

Im about to embark into uncharted territory in my life, if I can just step through the door. This is somewhat scary, but you know what is even more scary? Turning your back and letting go of something that you know, and is not good for you. Why is this so hard? You don't want to be held back anymore by this thing and yet holding is like what keeps you going....it doesn't make sense. I will let go...

I am thinking about becoming a photojournalist, I have started applying for schools...we shall see. Be well

Sunday, May 25, 2008

Sun, 25 May 2008 18:41:43 GMT

Have you ever had a day where someone's comments about yourself left you completely shellshocked? Like can't even think straight? I have had one of those days today..........

Monday, March 31, 2008

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 04:36:13 GMT

"Perhaps oneday we shall meet again, wondering through rough rock and heights of open space, finding the gazing place of our first meeting."

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Sun, 16 Mar 2008 17:13:00 GMT

I wonder about a pirates life....

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Wed, 12 Dec 2007 20:53:47 GMT

The Hunt for the Christmas Tree amidst the Dark Abyss....

The day was rainy and cold as Oliver and Sylvia set out for there Christmas tree adventure. They were going in search for the perfect tree and had armed themselves with hot chocolate, cookies, music(for they had a two hour drive to no man's land in front of them), crocheting for Sylvia, an ax, a chainsaw, one four wheeler, a sled, rain gear, and last but not least, hearty spirits eagerly awaiting for what lie ahead. Most of this well thought out preparation was thanks to Oliver. So with their noble Blazer loaded they began.....
They had gotten a late start and and knew that they would not reach there destination before dark, undeterred they had high hopes it would merely add to there adventure. The drive was pleasant and uneventful with merry making, good conversation, and hot cocoa drinking....this was thanks to Sylvia.
It was indeed well past dark upon arriving at the house who's woods they would be embarking. No one was home, so Oliver and Sylvia immediately jumped out of their noble Blazer and began getting things in order.
Sylvia, being so comfortably warm on the drive down, started shuddering instantly as the cold night air confronted her face. Oliver, who also seemingly had forgotten, added a heavy rain coat to his already layered body. Sylvia, taking his example, added more layers of her own, including a fuzzy white hat that made her look somewhat like an elf.
Once getting the four wheeler unloaded, their other noble steed, with sled secured they set off across the yard and down the hill towards the woods. As they traveled further from the house they realized how dark it truly was, the absence of the moon and stars had given an eerie feeling to the surrounding trees and brush. Now, Oliver was somewhat familiar with this place, it was land of a family member. He swore there was a grove of pines, not to far away, that would satisfy their needs quite nicely. Sylvia, having a good amount of confidence in the young Oliver, smiled and tried to peer into the thick darkness for an outline of some pines.
After traveling a ways more throught the dark forest of doom, Oliver began to loose his bearings and took a wrong turn up a steep incline. The brush instantly became more thick, and cold spiny branches reached out from every side. Sylvia, giving in to being a complete girl, tried to crouch smaller behind Oliver as the brush clawed at their legs and arms.
Finally, they came to a small clearing big enough to get turned around and start back down the steep hill. Luckily they get to the bottom without falling to their death down one of the many surrounding ravines.
Oliver, making his way back to the wrong turn, remembers where he is and proceeds with confidence down the path before them. After only a few minutes they came to a giant mud puddle, Oliver and Sylvia were pretty sure the puddle was trying to pass itself off as a small lake. Without hesitation and with boyish laugh, Oliver plows the their noble four wheeler through the frigid brown water and to the shore. Sylvia gave a muffled cry of delight and could only smile.
The night was still rainy and cold, the trees were still erie and creepy, and there was still no sign of the perfect Christmas tree, but even with these minor set backs Oliver and Sylvia began to sing merrily....." O' Christmas tree, O' Christmas tree, we really want to find you!" "O' Christmas tree, O' Christmas tree why are you hiding from us!..."in this dark, creepy forest!"
Finally Oliver suggests setting off on foot, at this time he was pretty sure the grove was very near. This was a good but short lived idea, for without the bright beam of the four wheeler head light the darkness totally engulfed everything. Oliver, only having one dim flashlight was in front, leaving Sylvia behind crouched down like a hunchback, and waving her arms out in front of her like windmills to avoid having an eye taken out by the sharp tree branches. She could only imagine how ridiculous she looked, which made her laugh.
Her laughter trailed off as she looked around and felt that any minute, a lone lumberjack was going to come out from one of the many shadows and hack the young Oliver and herself to pieces. They quickly headed back to their the steed and drove on again.
The forest seemed to taunt them all the way, its many arms and hands trying to confuse Oliver and steal Sylvia's lovely elf hat. About to give up, Oliver makes one more turn and there off in the distance a splendid sight beheld them, the pine grove!!! Yelling bouts of "Hurrah's" and "O' Christmas tree we have found thee!" They made their way to the patches of green. Once there, Sylvia quickly walked closer to get a better look. They were there all right........all 50 ft. of them. Sylvia, cried "Oliver they are huge!" Oliver replied, "Its ok we will just cut the top off one!"
Taking their almost dying flashlight they went joyously in search of a good looking top of one of the gigantic trees. Again, it was very hard to see in the dark, so after much deliberation they found one that would just have to work. Oliver brought the sled over and their little green chainsaw and went to work. Sylvia had so wanted to use the chainsaw herself but seeing how it was it was pitch black out, Oliver thought it would be best if he did the sawing.
They got a good 12 ft. chunk and strapped it to the sled, feeling very pleased with themselves and almost giddy they headed back towards the house......singing all the way.
After getting it into the light they saw that their precious tree had some flaws, broken branches and more than one hole! But loving every one of them they secure it to the top of the blazer and head for home..........the end.

This was the actual happening of the adventure that myself and the good Mr. Conley went through to get one of our lovely friends a fresh, 12 ft. Christmas tree! Merry Christmas!

Sunday, November 25, 2007

Sun, 25 Nov 2007 23:25:30 GMT

I am an aunt again for the fifth time!!

Oh dearest Liam, you are the second boy to enter our clan but the first Mcbride son....in this you should take great pride. You are dark and wonderful and made your debut in an especially sneaky manner!.
May you be adamant in searching for God's humility and truth and willing be their bearer. May you be passionate yet gentle, and always stay true to the adventuress heart that lies within every boy ever created!......espescially to that of a scotsman. May we, your family, be steady and true examples in every area part of your life......always.

thank you God for the gift of our Liam!

Thursday, November 08, 2007

Thu, 08 Nov 2007 23:54:28 GMT

Do you ever wish to know your future? Sometimes I do......and then sometimes I don't. I love the adventure of not knowing what is going to come next, but sometimes I am waiting with such longing for something that I greatly wish to know how soon it will come......or if at all. I know, I know, I should not be worried with the future or the past, but the present.....longing is just a hard emotion to embrace.

Thursday, November 01, 2007

Thu, 01 Nov 2007 16:35:43 GMT

Me + the loverly stephanie + the dear travis + Oregon =.........heaven sent blessings!

It is a strange, yet wonderful, encounter when seeing someone again after a long period of time and picking up where you left off.....not in the sense of things be exactly the same, for change and growth hopefully come with time, but in the sense that it is just as easy, if not more so, to connect with each other and see the other for their true self. I have been blessed with this on more than one occasion throughout my short adulthood, and it truly is a gift.

be blessed

Sunday, October 14, 2007

Sun, 14 Oct 2007 15:04:21 GMT

I left on a bit of a meltdown note.....but clarity is beginning to show itself. Its amazing what God can do in a moment of real need, I am truly blessed with friendship.

you know who you are lovely dear......thank you.